Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Only Stories

Melding to my suckling baby boy during a sweltering San Diego Autumn heat wave with temperatures reaching close to ninety degrees, we rocked and gazed into each other's eyes. While the fans whirred peacefully in the uncommonly quiet solitude of our home recording studio, amber light filtered in through the white cotton curtains dancing and swaying like ghosts in the circulating air. 
Our home, normally strewn with cables, mic stands, musicians, instruments and a tireless record producer (who doubled as "Daddy",) pacing in and out of the rooms in an endless ere of setting up sound, working with musicians, refilling his coffee and checking in on his baby mama and son, was now empty. The calm after the storm. Leaving me with an early evening with nothing to do but create new melodies for the lullabies I hoped my son would sing to his babies someday. 

On this particular occasion, my little one played a big part in honing in the perfect melody and I discovered how opinionated (Daddy's) little boy could really be. Along with the gentle hum of the fans and my baby's cooing from time to time, I was hearing a subtle Native American drum beat deep inside my head. I like to think that it was the combination of our hearts beating as one. With it came bits and pieces of a melody that I began to hum out loud. Every few notes, my son would readily coo or grunt depending on whether or not he liked what was developing...in which case, after an hour of humming to avoid his grunts, I somehow became his instrument. While the melody for Only Stories was born, he finally closed his eyes and I laid my son down to sleep with the profound knowledge that he and I were writing our lullaby together. My heart swelled with a tenderness and pride only I can fully comprehend.  
Over the course of the next few weeks, maybe even months, I carried our melody along with a deep desire to create the perfect lyrics for our lullaby. I spent hours writing and re-writing my innermost thoughts scrawled on notebooks, napkins and sometimes even the palm of my hand and used the same method we used to achieve the final melody, testing each line while singing my baby to sleep. 
While most lullabies are laced with Fairy Tales and stories, I reveled in the thought that I could potentially enrich my child's life by telling him the truth, or at least what I've come to believe in the years that I've lived...that everything we're told, everything we tell, whether to ourselves or to others, is essentially a story and what we choose to believe resides deep down inside, sometimes hiding until revealed by the words of a story or Fairy Tale with just the right key to unlock our own inner mysteries. Because each one of us holds in our heart our own truths and that is what guides us on our journeys through life.
Only Stories is about the stories we're told since the day we're born that become the lessons we share until the day we die.
Here, I share with you one of my favorite works of art. One that I will hold close and dear to my heart as the song my baby and I wrote one note, one heartbeat and one belief of truth at a time.

Only Stories
Brooke Mackintosh

I just had a brilliant idea
Let's call it poetry
Wrap it up in black and white
With satin bows
Never mind
The words you've heard before
It's only history
All you need to know
It's really nothing more

They're just stories that we tell
When there's really no one else's
Point to view
Only stories that we chase
When there's nothing
That'll face us with the truth
You'll find what's true
Inside of only you

Let me live each moment as it comes
You love a mystery
I am not your story
I cannot be told
Pay no mind unless you cross that line
A future oh, so fine
Someone wrote it
And they sold it into gold

They're just stories that we tell
When there's really no one else's
Point to view
Only stories that we chase
When there's nothing
That'll face us with the truth
You'll find what's true
Inside of only you
Beware what's there
Disguised as living proof
They're just stories

Build a bridge into a new horizon
Focus on the love each step will take
Deny no neighbor thoughts or dreams of illusion
Befriend,  shake hands, collaborate
They're just stories

They're just stories that we tell
When there's really no one else's
Point to view
Only stories that we chase
When there's nothing that'll face us with the truth




Thank you for reading my blog, for taking the time to listen to my music and for entering a sacred part of my world. Here, in my heart, you are welcome.

You may hear this song at my website www.BrookeMackintoshMusic.com
Written in 2012. Recorded by Sven-Erik Seaholm at Kitsch & Sync Production in San Diego, CA, April 2013.




Monday, July 14, 2014

Journey

Journey

Once upon a time, in a land far away, (the beautifully mountain encased Utah,) there lived a young woman with hopes as high as the sky and dreams as deep as the deep blue sea. She had recently left her home and everything she once believed behind to commence a soulful journey to sunny San Diego, CA.
Her childhood fantasies of living a life as a musician called to her upon a great awakening of her spirit and mind and she packed her clothes, guitars, Labrador and Tabby into her mini SUV and headed down the 15 towards hope for a brighter tomorrow.
As soon as she arrived, she quickly established herself amongst other singer/songwriters who helped inspire and expand her writing capabilities by example and by participating in songwriting games and showcases.
Sometime in that first year, she'll not soon forget spending her last $10 on a CD called "Daydreaming At Night" by songwriter extraordinaire and a local celebrity, named Gregory Page.
After delving into the intricate folds of lyrical sensibility, elaborate French persuasion and "old-timey" folk that made up a world of familiar, yet new sounds to her enjoyment, she sat down at her piano and wrote "Journey."
Longing for a simpler time and originally written as a duet, the lyrics of which are about the same young woman who felt rather stuck in the place she once thought she most longed to be and for the life of her, could not seem to figure out where to go or what to do next.

Journey

Start a new page
Everyday's a clean slate
I'm a hopeless romantic
In a day and an age
Where love's
But a fleeting moment
Passing by
Where do I
Fit in here?

Blue skies await
Inside I stay
Protect my fragile skin
Made of cellophane
Where the light
Might be too bright
For me to hide
Where do I
How do I
Go from here?

Journey take me far away
Far away to another place
Where my heart won't depreciate
Over time
Journey take me far away
Far away to another place
Where do I
How do I
Go from here?
Go from here

Crashing waves break
Reach and pull away
I'm standing on a cliff
It's time to take a leap of faith
Should I swim
Or am I strong
Enough to fly
Where do I
How do I
Go from here?

Journey take me far away
Far away to another place
Where my heart won't depreciate
Over time
Journey take me far away
Far away to another place
Where do I
How do I
Go from here?
Go from here

Thank you for reading my blog.

Your interest and support continues to serve as a beacon for my soul to continue onward on this beautiful road I've chosen.

Music brought us together. Long live the muse!

Love,

Brooke


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